April update 2

 hey! it's been a while, how are you? 

I'm really excited as it's almost my 22nd birthday! And preparations are in place, I have a lot of family and friends coming over for a painting party! 

Things have been hard otherwise, i have little cash and all these things like petrol and payments are biting at me. doing door dash is helping but it's getting to the point i have to quit smoking to conserve cash.. this is tough. I feel so much anxiety over every small thing, luckily i have an appointment with my case worker next week so I will express all my pain then, for now my family get an ear-full and so do you dear reader. 

On a brighter note, things with my boyfriend are great! and I've just finished reading a short book called 'The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A Fuck'. For me, it's been really motivating and has helped me see parts of myself that i usually would hide. It makes me want to change. 

Also though my job hunt has turned up sour (even Maccas rejected me) I may get a second chance at my dad's place of work! So please wish me luck. then the only trouble will be keeping it, i don't understand why i have such a hard time working, i do great for a few weeks but quickly burn out and make impulsive decisions like taking days off or even quitting without a backup at all! This year i have to change, i need to change. 

I hope April treats you well, and work hard to achieve your dreams!

April Update

April Update

This April has been wonderful! I cut my hair into a pixie cut, my boyfriend and I are seeing each other this weekend and I'm still jobless... well the last one isn't really a plus but I've decided to just enjoy my time while i have it instead of freaking out all the time. I've been reading this book, 'The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A Fuck' and It's been really eye opening for me. Of course i give a fuck about my unemployment but i wont let it eat me alive until I'm a wallowing mess laying in bed all day! I will door dash and paint and read because i still deserve happiness. 

As for my hair... I made a silly impulsive decision to cut it and it looked TERRIBLE, luckily for me my mother is a hair guru and managed to fix it into a cut I've always wanted to try. Now you may say, wow why did you cut your beautiful hair? and my answer is: that all over social media i have been told to grow my hair and to that i say fuck you. I do what i want.

And the boyfriend, we've been quite well... he treats me fine, i guess. He Could be a little more head over heels for me but you can't really change men can you? We're going to see each other this weekend and i can't wait! we're going to have a picnic at the park and do stuff ya know.

Things have been weird, and he doesn't have a phone so we cant contact each other willy nilly. it's been really hard. We say i love you but does he really mean it? Am i a paranoid overthinker? mayhaps. 

I've also been thinking about turning my blog into a podcast instead, something to think about...

anyways thanks for reading! have a beautiful day 

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I'm Back In Australia!

Hi! How are you? I know it's been a few days since my last post, First we had the magical wedding, then flying back home and finally the wonderful world of unpacking! And while I was amongst the busyness I decided to take a break from my blog. 

 Last Saturday we landed back in Australia! The flight felt longer and more troublesome, my family and I were really over the whole airport experience. And now my parents are at their block in Nanango, rural Australia, for a short holiday. 

I have loads of washing to do but now I'm babysitting for the bride so it'll have to wait. 

Here's a few more photos from our trip that I never posted: 

since I got my My Melody bag I haven't let it go, she needs a wash lol 

Glad you read this post! Have a luxurious week and spoil yourself once in a while 💖

Bye!