April Update

April Update

This April has been wonderful! I cut my hair into a pixie cut, my boyfriend and I are seeing each other this weekend and I'm still jobless... well the last one isn't really a plus but I've decided to just enjoy my time while i have it instead of freaking out all the time. I've been reading this book, 'The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A Fuck' and It's been really eye opening for me. Of course i give a fuck about my unemployment but i wont let it eat me alive until I'm a wallowing mess laying in bed all day! I will door dash and paint and read because i still deserve happiness. 

As for my hair... I made a silly impulsive decision to cut it and it looked TERRIBLE, luckily for me my mother is a hair guru and managed to fix it into a cut I've always wanted to try. Now you may say, wow why did you cut your beautiful hair? and my answer is: that all over social media i have been told to grow my hair and to that i say fuck you. I do what i want.

And the boyfriend, we've been quite well... he treats me fine, i guess. He Could be a little more head over heels for me but you can't really change men can you? We're going to see each other this weekend and i can't wait! we're going to have a picnic at the park and do stuff ya know.

Things have been weird, and he doesn't have a phone so we cant contact each other willy nilly. it's been really hard. We say i love you but does he really mean it? Am i a paranoid overthinker? mayhaps. 

I've also been thinking about turning my blog into a podcast instead, something to think about...

anyways thanks for reading! have a beautiful day 

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